common-er

just recently, *&^#@ and i have been talking a lot about him and her. i don't know how or why, or maybe it's just one of those occasional talks we do about them. we actually do not really like going back to stuff like those  (he hates it more than i do) but then again sometimes it's really inevitable, i think. then randomly *&^#@ told me that i have quite a lot of similarities with her. i quickly then thought of things that are common between him and the other him. *&^#@ gave me more of the "similarities" more than i could between them, which was just like what i said, quite a lot. it actually made me think.... what if i remind him of her? then i'd laugh it off in my mind. another thing that struck me the most is that he'd often tell me that she treated him so dearly, so full of love--the opposite of how i treat him (lol) idk why but when i heard it, it actually made me smile. :) no joke, it actually did.

as his current girlfriend (there you go) i actually would like him to remember stuff or memories like those from his past. i mean, there's nothing wrong with it. i'm not being a hypocrite or whatever but that's just who i am. those things made him this way today. i don't want him to forget how happy he was back then, how happy they were cause memories are memories, they're there to be remembered and looked back at. 'cause i myself treasure memories in my head. i want (but i do not impose) him to be grateful of things which made him happy once in his life. i don't know how the hell to explain this more...

it's just me... i think differently.